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Eileen Frankel Tomarchio
from The Sea Box
Thomas had always carried the sea inside him. Likening baby Grace to made-up ocean creatures—sea-horse foal, mermaid embryo—for her squarish plane of a face, wide-set eyes, abundant hair. Making home recordings of surf noises and pelagic birds for layering and manipulating on his tape decks into a watery, modernist soundtrack to Grace’s upbringing. Carrying more than a whiff of his old livelihood—a mash of burlap, diesel and mossbunker—even after twelve months on firebases and in jungles, or so claimed Ellen.
Years later, after Thomas jumped, Ellen had no qualms about pitching her husband’s cassettes in the garbage with the kitchen scraps and cigarette butts. Grace managed to keep Thomas’s field jacket hidden in a closet nether region, but Ellen eventually found it and wears it still like a bathrobe, its hem stringy from her nervous-tic fingering, its green dye mottled from so many wash cycles. Grace often wonders about the act of dressing in a dead man’s clothing. If this is how Ellen forgets Thomas. By folding him into the everyday, just something to hang in a closet, throw on a chair. Or if wearing the jacket reanimates him somehow whenever she puts it on.
Eileen Tomarchio lives in a small NJ town, where she's been a librarian for 18 years. Her recent writing appears/ is forthcoming in OSU The Journal, Vestal Review, Hunger Mountain, Ghost Parachute, Necessary Fiction, Variant Literature and elsewhere. She's on Bluesky @eileentomarchio and Instagram @gondaline26.
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